Anxiety, kindly go away.
I’m not sure what to do. I’ve been feeling mentally fantastic for the past eight months. Unfortunately, the past three days I’ve been experiencing waves of anxiousness. Last night was so overwhelming, I broke down crying. I was heartbroken that these feelings were creeping back up again. All I kept thinking was “It’s coming back. I’m going back to where I was. I’m just going to have to rely on more medication.” You never really realize how great you’re feeling until something hits you. Especially something such as mental illness.
Currently as I’m typing this, I’m experiencing the waves again. I begin to have a small amount of anxiousness in the middle of my chest. From there, the feelings intensify and spreads. As the rush of fear takes over my body, I feel paralyzed and nauseous. Thankfully, after 20 minutes it slowly drifts away. (I hope it continus to drift away. Far, far away!!) I’m then left cold and shivering.
I’m going to try my best to fight this. I’m not sure how much I can fight. But, I’m determined. Im so thankful to have my mom and fiance around. They are great suporters.
I’m going to take this opportunity to cuddle with my son, calm myself and may even catch a couple Z’s.